i have been getting up at 6:10 a.m. every morning during the week since school started. it gives me time to take a shower and get everything else done to get the kids to school on time and get back home so i can (theoretically) begin working. i made a commitment to myself on sunday that i was going to do yoga monday through friday. yes, you have heard me say this before. but rick started his job on monday, so now that the house is empty during the day, i find it easier to make this really happen.
so today is day 3 of this commitment, and i'm already going "ugh." it's not even that bad--just 20 minutes. but i find myself trying to think of things to occupy my mind while i'm doing down dog and warrior pose so i am not thinking about how i really wish i wasn't doing yoga at all but eating a plateful of cookies i baked last night instead.
so this morning, i started thinking about how much i love obama and really want him to win the presidency, which made me think about how i grew up in a conservative-ish Christian household where the message (at church, not from my parents at all) was that being Republican is synonymous with being a Christian. i knew nothing about politics, so i just said, "okay."
fast forward to today. i still don't know much about politics. what i do know comes mostly from my husband, whose passion it is to read everything (and i mean EVERYTHING) he can about what's going on related to politics. he's very gifted (i think) at all the crap that's being said and really get to the root of things. so when GW became president, we began having discussions. these discussions led to more insight on my part (at least i like to think so!). at any rate i don't feel completely lost related to politics anymore (just mostly lost).
ok, i say all of this because i don't usually write about politics and don't feel like i'm in any way qualified to do so. these are just my thoughts that came up in my head while i was doing yoga. so please don't crucify me in the comments if you have a strong passionate argument against what i'm saying... :)
so what i started thinking is that obama is a democrat, and he has some stances on abortion that i don't like. i don't know all of them--i've already said i'm not completely informed. :) and i know that mccain claims to be pro-life related to abortion. so first i thought about how interesting it is that people might choose to vote for mccain based on the fact that he is pro-life. and other people might choose not to vote for obama because he is pro-choice.
and then i thought about myself. i used to have severely strong (read: judgmental) viewpoints about abortion. about how abortion should never take place, even if the woman has been raped, or even if the mother is about to die. i am not saying that i have changed my viewpoint, but i'm not saying i HAVEN'T changed my viewpoint. i'm saying that now that i'm a mother (obviously sexually active!), i am not so sure about where i stand on this issue. back then i wasn't a mother and wasn't sexually active, so it was easier to make these black & white statements. but now...
and i think that this mirrors the thought processes that have been swirling around in my mind a lot over the past 4 or so years--a lot of them have been more in the gray areas than in the black & white. if you ever watched the movie "saved" then you can picture how i was as a teenager. everything was so black & white. i'm not so sure i'm comfortable in the gray, but that's where i am right now, and in some ways it feels better than thinking i'm absolutely right about everything.
but i digress: so then i started thinking about what it means to be "pro-life" and how narrow-minded we can really be when it comes to that label and what it means or DOES not mean (there are of course always two sides to every issue right?). which made me think about how mccain seems to support the war in a way i am not comfortable with. which made me think about how in some ways obama seems to be more "pro-life" than mccain.
the issue of abortion aside, obama seems to be trying to breathe life (as best he can) into americans in general--promoting change, promoting a new way of thinking, promoting a new kind of politician. only time will tell if he is telling the truth, but for now, i believe him. i have to have some hope, after all.
obama also seems to be supporting life in the way he wants to bring troops home from iraq. this, to me, right now is a much bigger "life" issue. and i don't think we can just segment things away until we don't have to think about these things in the same paragraph. because they ARE so similiar in so many ways.
supporting life, being "pro-life," means being for life in ALL areas. being congruent with our thought processes. being consistent with our beliefs. this means being anti-death-penalty. anti-war. pro-life-and-when-it-begins-and-how-to-treat-fetuses. pro-saving-the-planet-so-our-children-have-a-life-on-Earth-after-we-are-gone. pro-not-spending-every-last-dime-and-borrowing-3-trillion-more-so-our-kids-and-their-kids-and-their-kids-and-THEIR-kids-are-destitute. pro-giving-life-to-the-needy-and-suffering.
when i think of my faith, of Jesus, of what he stood and stands for, obama represents "pro-life" to me, and that is exciting.
p.s. even if you don't follow politics, please feel free to comment; i'd love to hear what you all think!